98. It is Difficult - July 30, 2026

Mako Barr

Jul 30

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Owen has been reintroduced to nausea. It’s a bad flashback to when he first started chemotherapy. It is affecting his appetite.

He is also not facing forward. He is always talking negatively. He keeps giving so much power to the time that has already passed, and not putting energy into time he can spend in the future.

This makes everything weigh a ton more.

I’m trying to be a good wife but he says he misses his wife. He says I’m just the caregiver.

In my eyes, I don’t see how I can be a better one.

I’m hoping this trip does him some good.

And me too.

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